Do you sometimes find yourself surprised at how upset a situation makes you? As in, holy cow I didn’t realize how impassioned I was about this or how important this was to me until now?
That happened to me today. Due to last minute fires to put out at my day job I missed the opportunity to attend an amazing free monthly guided meditation at a spa near my office. I had to take a walk because I was so disappointed I actually felt as though I would cry. I realized just how important these guided meditations are to me…and this would have only been my third one to attend. These guided meditations are led by an amazing lady, Susan Lipshutz, who has experience in western medicine as well spiritual study. It is not religiously based, but rather offers an opportunity to sit for a while in the middle of the hectic day and center yourself. You can remain fully alert (with closed eyes) while she guides you through a meditation but are welcome to tune out and let your mind drift or even fall asleep if that's where the time leads you. Each meditation is focused on something different such as shedding stresses or behaviors that do not serve you (like snakes shed the skin they have outgrown). In the two times I've attended I have had some significant self discoveries.
The main reason I wanted to write about this here is because since this disappointment has many emotional connections, I find myself really wanting to turn to food for comfort. While I know from an excessive amount of experience that I will not gain enlightening personal insight by hunting down the doughiest chocolatey brownie of all time and double fisting it with the cheesiest salty chips of all time, I still madly desired both of those things (and no, it is in fact NOT a certain time of the month). I am proud that I chose a short walk to get some refreshing iced tea as a healer instead of gorging on treats (although I must admit-I've felt shakey about it all day and still kind of want that chocolate brownie topped with Doritos at this moment!!)
However, I think it’s really important for me to note how missing this session today has made me feel as well as celebrate that I have found something that brings me joy and benefits my body and soul. A friend brought up a very good point. To terribly paraphrase her sage advice, if I incorporate more pillars like this into my life then I won’t be quite so shaken when one of them crumbles.
What surprising anchor has grounded you?